1.5 post teaching

Hello there!

How have you all been doing? =) I hope everyone is doing well!
Today I just don't feel like doing anything about school and students (marking/preparing material/studying)!
So I decided to update this journal!

It's been around 1.5 months after I officially started working! So far so good! The senior teachers are very knowledgeable, approachable and friendly! Colleagues are very genuine and nice (true friends material!) and the students are simply adorable! :)

I just love their attitude! how they judge a person based on personality rather than ability to do something. Well, maybe I assumed too quickly, but how could you make a teacher your favorite, when the teacher did not do an awesome job in teaching? I didn't believe it as well! If I were in the student's position, I would have lost my respect straight away, and judged him/her as a bad teacher. But these students, most of them I would say, don't judge like that.

http://lowres.jantoo.com/training-education-insulting-rudeness-naughty-bad_behaviour-insult-16434572_low.jpg

I could confirm this simply because I was the 'bad' teacher! It happened during my first few days when I had to take over several tutorial classes on my own. I couldn't even remember basic/simple matrices principles as I had not revised the material! I felt so embarrassed and super bad as I hate being an unreliable teacher! (cuz I hate having one too!) I thought to myself that they must have disliked me! Ugh!

http://www.mi2f.com/m/algebra/images/matrix-inverse-2x2.gif

But to my surprise, they don't.
We are learning together instead. =)

It's so beautiful how they don't see me just as a teacher, but as a complete human-being.
They care about my feelings. We don't just talk about the school subjects, but other stuff too, music, places where we came from, pets, relationship, future plan, jokes, mistakes, etc.
Some of them are just so friendly that they hug me every time they see me.
How beautiful! =)

When I think back, I felt like a horrible human being, overlooking weak teachers without knowing all their potential and power! Ugh, I was horrible! I'm sorry! u_u

Right! For the updates, now I'm taking Maths Intensive Class, teaching primary 6 students once a week for 7 weeks! It's pretty fun! will talk about it in the next post! =)

Good night, people!
May you be well and happy always!

PS. Thank you students, for your patience for all great teachers in the making,
      Thank you for your positive attitude towards imperfections!
      You all are so lovely!

http://www.interestingfactss.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/10/flower-meadow-20392-20902-hd-wallpapers.jpg

My turn to savour my last weekend... jobless!

Yay! The visa has finally been 1 step away from being ready! yoohoo! I'm gonna teach soon!
It's a mixed feeling between exciting and frightening.

It is exciting because I'm gonna see the students! the kids! ahhh, and make new friends! =) Isn't it wonderful knowing that you take part in building a person's personality and skills? especially in their young age, when guidance is really necessary. Oh! I just can't wait to start! =D I hope I can be their friend and teacher at the same time! =)

However another part of me is frightened. Well, a lot of challenges are foreseen.
First and foremost challenge is waking up early, and sleeping early everyday. It is a challenge for a night owl like me! I can't afford to be late now! >.<

Next challenge will be commuting to school. I need to build up my arms strength to carry myself up through a wall hurdle on our way! For now, I'm still counting on bf to help me up! Haha! xD By the end of the year, I shall have no problem in push ups! yay! Hahaha!

And most of all is the students themselves.
Are they gonna like me?
Will they understand what I'm gonna teach?
Will they find my teaching method interesting?
Will they even listen to me?
What if I can't control the class?
...
...
... and it goes on and on...
Well, I'm about to find out!
I heard that the students here are more 'difficult' to handle than those in government/chinese school, but somehow I have a good feeling about this! Well, let's keep it this way! =)
I shall do my best to guide them, my children! =)

This mixed feeling reminds me of a song titled "I have Confidence" from The Sound of Music. Maria (Julie Andrews) sang this when she was on her way to Von Trapp family's residence. She is going to be a nanny for the captain's 7 children who are notorious for being so 'difficult' to handle. Enjoy this song, sang by the gorgeous Sierra Boggess!

Lyrics:
What will this day be like? I wonder.
What will my future be? I wonder.
It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be free
My heart should be wildly rejoicing
Oh, what's the matter with me?

I've always longed for adventure
To do the things I've never dared
And here I'm facing adventure
Then why am I so scared

A captain with seven children
What's so fearsome about that?

Oh, I must stop these doubts, all these worries
If I don't I just know I'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

The courage to serve them with reliance
Face my mistakes without defiance
Show them I'm worthy
And while I show them 
I'll show me

So, let them bring on all their problems
I'll do better than my best!!!
I have confidence they'll put me to the test
But I'll make them see I have confidence in me

Somehow I will impress them
I will be firm but kind
And all those children (Heaven bless them!)
They will look up to me

And mind me with each step I am more certain
Everything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which you see I have confidence in me

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers
When you wake up -- WAKE UP!

It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone
(Oh help!)

I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence in me!

Happy singing! =)

Sex: two sides of a coin

Hello everyone! How are you doing?

I hope I start working soon! I feel so unworthy when I don't do any work! :)
Anyway, me and my friend are preparing aerobic dance for charity this saturday to help raise awareness for children with learning disabilities. Wheeee, I'm so happy being involved in doing good things! :) It's 3.25 pm now, in about half an hour, bf will come back from work! Yay, I'm so happy to see him. :)

Okay, I just spent a good 2 hours to surf the internet and find out that it is scary how sex can be heavenly beautiful on one hand, and can be disastrously immorally ugly on the other hand. You might wonder why I suddenly bring up this topic. Well, growing up in a conservative asian culture, I have a very poor knowledge about sex. Believe it or not, the more you hide something from a kid, the more he will try to find out, and so I slowly find out about this through reading, movies that I come accross, internet, and other improper learning media without guidance.

At my age (yeah, not so young anymore), I'm lucky enough that I can judge wiser than kids or teens far younger than me. Imagine, if I was much younger and naive, and I was exposed to these kinds of things without any guidance of sex education from school or parents, it would be such a dangerous thing!

In my country, well during my time, students are not equipped with any sex education besides a unit from biology called Reproductive System. That is sad.

Male and Female Reproductive System for kids
http://edjudo.com/wordpress_livedec10/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/kidshealth.jpg

Well lucky thing for me that I took Pharmacy which educated me with hell lots of sexual health. I still remember I was in 2nd year that time and I asked a friend of mine how intercourse could have possibly happened even a male and a female stay so close to each other. I have no idea that penis will erect, go up, and so be able to penetrate the vagina. -.-

Well, my point is sex ed is important! I can see my friends who are taught proper sex education before are more well-informed about it. And what's important is that they know about safe sex, the consequences of unhealthy sex and I can see that they are more capable in filtering the information about it from media.

Just to share with you what I found today from my superficial search in internet about sex. Sex can be heavenly beautiful when it is done by two people in love, well described by poetic narration, romantic lyrics, beautiful love scene from movies. However, it can also be very immoral! It is shown by rape, any type of rape, anything that is done without consent. This thing makes me wanna puke! How horrible human can be! It is really heart wrenching and breaking knowing that rape is happening at other side of the world.
My heart goes to all rape victims. I pray that this thing shall stop. :(

:(
:(
:(

Ah, I'm so sad right now.
It's 4.40pm! I got a go!

Breathe in the positivity!

I won't give up!

Dear bloggers,

I know I will start working soon, and a lot of things need adjustment quite a little or much. And I think the most difficult challenge I will am facing is to change my sleeping pattern.

I don't know about other people, but these days well almost 2 months, the amount of sleep I need to fully charge myself is 10 hours. 10! TEN! or the least amount I need so that I could operate without feeling fatigue is 8 hours! Okay then, let's settle with 8 hours.

Strategies:
1. Lights off 11pm, wake up 7am.
2. Conserve energy, wear comfy clothes and footwear cuz u will be walking for roughly 1 hour a day.
3. When feeling tired, stretch instead of napping.
4. Strictly no instagram, facebook, browsing 10 pm onwards.
5. A cup of coffee if needed or small nap on couch.
6. Be prepared: Read Physics book - Target: finish by mid August.
7. Plan-Write-DON'T waste your TIME worrying - worrying promotes wakefulness!
8. Be POSITIVE, have a Growth mindset, instead of a Fixed mindset.

Yes! That's about it! Let's do this! =)))))

Let's go!

Cancer kills...fast

I have always known that life is short,

I have always acknowledged that life is short,

I have always realized that life is short,

here... *pointing to my head*

But, it has never struck me really hard,

here... *pointing to my beating heart*

until I have seen death myself in front of my eyes

of dear ones,

of friends,

of relatives,

of ancestors,

or maybe one day of myself...

~11th June 2014

I saw my mom's friend suffered and fought from ovarian cancer.

It was really a heartbreaking scene to see friends saying goodbye and talking for the last time.

There were so much tears, regrets, and sacrifice.

Today, the brave friend passed away.

We all prayed may she be free from her sufferings and may she rest in peace.

How cancer kills, and it kills F.A.S.T from the point one starts to 'feel' sick.

It's just within months the last time she 'looked' healthy.

So please, do not underestimate cancer, treat it F.A.S.T, from the first sign and symptoms of it.

Do NOT wait until you feel significantly sick.

It can be cured, though I have witnessed deaths from cancer, I have witnessed survivors too.

Don't give up! and T.I.M.E is really a big factor, treat it as soon as possible.

The same prayers go to our former maid who passed away due to breast cancer.

It's such a shame that she did not take any action or tell anybody about it until it causes her great discomfort.

When she's finally wanted to take the treatment after so many advice and pestering, it was too late.

Dear friends,

Let's create awareness that cancer needs a proper and timely treatment.

DO NOT WAIT until you feel really sick, TREAT it NOW!

May all cancer victims who had fought bravely rest in peace.

May all cancer fighters stay positive and be healthy.

Dee

Things to do while awaiting for visa

I have more or less around 2 months before my visa application will be approved. In the mean time there are so many things I can do!

The best of all, I can have enough amount of sleep EVERY DAY! How awesome it is! If you don't think so, sure you will understand once you start working, especially if you are a night owl like me! Haha!

Night Owl
(http://callyjanestudio.blogspot.com/2012/09/night-owls.html)

I'm trying my very very best to fix my biological clock. I wish to wake up at 7 am so that I can get ready for class at 8.30am. I can't be late anymore since I am the teacher this time! aaaargghh! and my best record until now is still 10am T.T ughhh this sucks! Keep calm, we still have 1.5 months to change this! I CAN DO THIS! Do you have any tips to be an early bird? Share with me! ;)

Besides sleeping, here are several things I'm currently on while waiting for the visa to get approved,

1. Being a part-time English teacher. I think it is a good idea to brush up my English and teaching skill before I get to my real long term classes.
2. Being a part-time cashier. I'm helping my mom to replace the cashier working for us so that he can take some rest. I quite enjoy it, the colleagues are nice, like family! I laugh a lot with these people!
3. Blogging. I shall write again to brush up my language and communication skills, and especially English! Oh gosh, It deteriorates so much from the first time I start uni I guess! *face palm
4. Stretching, stretching, and stretching my legs! I challenge myself to be able to split, be it middle split or side splits.
5. Dancing, stretching my back u-uh, can't do, I have back injury which has not recovered fully T.T
6. Knitting. I never knew that my mom knit! and she knits well! I asked her to teach me yesterday, it's pretty fun though my left hand cramped a little because I was not used to it!
7. Cooking. I failed once, twice. >.< I shall try again!
8. Preparing my teaching aids and materials. All my secondary notebooks (my precious) had been recycled when my sis was about to get married. So I have to re-do again! and maybe try a different approach.
9. Catching up with some friends in this town.
10. Dresses hunting. I'm currently checking on prices of dresses to be sent to my friends.
11. Present hunting. A friend of mine will celebrate her birthday soon! I shall prepare something for her! ^^
12. Pharmacist? I just got a phone call from a friend who is working in a hospital in town to help out with the pharmacy department, but not sure yet

Wow, I didn't see that I have a lot of things to do until I had listed it! Good luck!
This shall be my motivation to wake up early in the morning!
Got to wake up, night owl!

Let's end this post with the quote of the day below.

Special thanks to Alex who lent me this precious Life's Little Instruction Book!

Wishing you a great weekend ahead! and for Monashians, happy swot vac! =)

Dee

A New Beginning

Hello everyone! Do you like the new template of this blog?
Honestly, I'm not a fan of pink colour, but I thought of trying something new! So I just pick any colour that makes me happy and pink it is! (shockingly!)

As the title suggests, it is a new beginning of my life. For the past 4.5 years, I had been preparing myself to be a great pharmacist! But due to complication issues that I have with pursuing this ambition, I decided to let it go. Well, it is not easy to begin with, I cried a lot, A LOT!, I became bitter about this pharmacy field, about the people, the institutions, about the rules and everything. It is not a nice thing. I can go on and on...

...but, it is history...

I'm proud to say that I can make peace within myself, and let go. Something stroke me and "BANG! hey, it is not so bad after all!" Besides, it gives me a chance to be whatever I wanna be rather than constricting myself to only 1 field. And tell you, I have so many dreams, m.a.n.y. d.r.e.a.m.s! so Horrayy! It's time for me to pursue those dreams!

Through a lot of good testimonials and recommendations, I applied for a job to this company. I'm soooo happy that I am accepted, as teacher! ^^ and so my journey as a young teacher shall begin!
Now I'm waiting for my visa to be granted. Wish me luck! =)
I'm soooo excited! In my head, I can imagine myself with the students. The first words that I will be speaking to my first batch of students keep repeating in my head. Though it is not very clear, It sounds so real in my head! Haha! (crazy!)

People say you shall start teaching and you will realize it is not as exciting as you are thinking now. Haha, maybe it is true, but it doesn't hurt to feel this joy and excitement! heeeee! =D

Anyway, I'm so excited for this new beginning! and I couldn't be more happier that my family and friends are happy for me too! =') Thank you for always be beside me no matter what!

I will not totally delete Pharmacy from my life, after all it has played a part to shape me as who I am today, and it makes me more aware about medicines in general! (Very important! Drugs can kill you if you are not careful!) I will still share with you my experience and inspiring stories about pharmacy world! So juniors and fellow friends who are soon becoming pre-registered pharmacists, let's keep sharing our stories! =) Though now I have moved on to other profession, I will treasure this precious knowledge that I learned. =)

With this, I welcome myself back to A B C Dee! A journal of a (soon-to-be) young teacher! =)

Begin Again

Wow! Just look at the date from when I stopped writing! It's been ages ago!

I guess, my life is kind of a roller coaster. I has been up and down. The crazy ride went uncontrollably. It didn't stop even when you screamed, and I was confused and lost. (I most probably still sit on this roller coaster ride)

I think my life has stopped when I stopped writing. Yea right, of course not because of that!
But hey! Let's start writing again! who knows it will make me wiser and more contemplative so I won't fall down easily again.

Let's begin again.
Ah! Before that, I will summarize what 2012 was all about:

"It's an EVENTFUL year."

Gosh! I need a camera! Sorry people, no picture to describe that, but here's one of the videos taken in 2012:

"Exactly who we are is just enough, there's a place for us" =')

Good night people! =)
It's time to meditate, the medicine to stabilize my life!

Devi

Sometimes When We Touch

I hope it captured the pictures inside... =)

So that...

 When the time comes and we need to look back,

we will never forget the feelings that we have...

I heard spider! *prize fighter* haha! xD

Looking back at 2nd year 2nd sem - Part 1

Hi everyone!
How have you all been doing?

On my side, I changed a lot, I think... I mean, really... "WOW! Time flies so freaking fast!" and another semester has gone by the wind! But of course I kissed it as it flew.. There's no way I would just let it go just like that...yeah, just like that..coz I'm treasuring every moment I have with them, here, and now..

So, let's look back what we've done! Wait let me check my organizer back!

Haha! Okay, that's alot.. but let's just sort out what I could remember most!

Rumah Juara Orphanage Social Visit
A joint event of Monash Buddhist Society (MBS) and TarraBuddY (Nusantara Buddhist Youth).
As a first-timer programmer, I could tell, It was not easy to hold an event, especially involving a lot of people. We had problems that are solved with sweat and tears and sacrifices.

Lucky thing, I had a great team: Alex, Rifin, Jennifer, See Lip, Sujata, and our helpful supervisor: Pei Hao! It's a small team I could say for such an event, that's why we're a bit out of breaths finishing our targets for this event.

THE AWESOME COMMITTEES! =D

And nothing else are more rewarding than to see the smiles and laughter from these little ones, seriously all those tiredness, lamentation, complaints are all GONE!

Happiness ^^

...and not to forget seeing the joy of sharing and compassion shining through from these sporting participants! You guys are awesome! the children just loved lingering around you! =')

The girls and their hair! BFF since young! hahaha! xD

The boys and piggy-back! =D

Group Photos! =)

Good job, everyone! Let's make it annually! =D Yes! I said it! ;)

Flying Without Wings - Annual Charity Event by MUMedS
Planned to watch and support Grace singing for the event only initially, but turned out being the target of the splash! Oh well, it's for charity! =D

HLY, Y U!!! haha xD

Video of me being splashed: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10150276564027086&set=t.813457566&type=2&theater

And oh! I got my first Henna that day! but I did it straight after I was splashed to pool of water, so I think it didn't turn out good, but still it's pretty!

pretty Henna!

Back to school, we learned a new system of learning: PBL!
If you wonder what PBL is, it's Problem Based Learning: usually simulated cases are given to medical students and these are their exercises to use their clinical skills to make clinical decisions for the simulated patients. Decisions are discussed. This year, us, pharmacy students too adopt PBLs, and I fully support it! =D

Examples of PBL cases

i.gemz in Action!
Yeah, being a newcomer is never easy, but I'm lucky these people are so friendly and supportive.

Ganbatte, i.gemz! We can revive! =)

Being in i.gemz, I learned a lot of things like how to place myself, how to sing my heart out, not my head out - the most important thing that I seemed to forget since I started to take vocal classes a year ago. I will write my journey with i.gemz so far in another post, because I think it's gonna take long! =)

Anyway, here is one the performances videos:

Just BEAUTIFUL, rite? =')

My 21st Birthday
It's gonna be one of the most historical day of my life!

First thing when I reached school! I felt so much LOVE =')

and it's the sweetest... ever...

1st surprise: Flower bouquet, special thanks to Amelia, Eunice, U Jean, Jue Lee, and Lip Yong... especially Amelia, I know she's the one who came out with the idea and fold the flowers patiently.. =')

Mrs. Carol's appearance, and us at the stairs!

I owed this people , man... really.. =') These people made me cry with tears of joy...

Reading Love letters from Australia.. =') and another surprise awaited me from the key!

Sweetest ever! They really knew me well, how I like sweet things.. =') Thank's to my babes at Aus! and everyone here too!  x.o.x.o

Lunch time! And out of my expectation, they took me to a vegetarian restaurant. Thank you so much, guys.. it means so much to me! Honestly, I'm not a pure vegetarian, I just prefer the way of vegetarianism. And it made my day, just PERFECT... yeah, perfect.. =)

girls and boys with the flowers

U Jean also celebrated her 20th birthday! =)

My lovely friends, thank you so much for giving your time for me.. =')

bday girls and their bday cake.. =)

Another surprises! A key, it's a simple, beautifully designed pendant. I never thought I could get one, because I didn't even know such tradition exists! Ha-Ha! but what made me cried the most is: ...

What made me cried the most:
It's written inside the cards,

"Dear, people might not have known about your 17th birthday, but we'll be right by your side today & always =)"

='( I remembered I told them that 17th birthday was really something back in my home country, not the 21st, but sadly no one really knew about the big 17th birthday of a just-moved-in girl. Honestly, I've never really been thrown a party. Looking at friends being thrown many birthday bash around the street, I just dreamed and sighed.. Ha-Ha! WTH am I talking about? Ha-Ha..

My point is those sentence just pierced  right through my heart and hit my emotional button. Thank you, all of you. =') Now you know why I treasure these people so much..

Yes! We did the flower tradition! Lovely-Dovey Atmosphere is in the air! ^^

Thank you my friends! You guys are more than just course-mates, for sure! =)

I came back, and my childhood friend, Lucy asked me out on a date!  =D

Lucy's bf came out out of the blue and brought a bday cake out! so sweet of this couple! =)

And midnight surprise from my pre-U friends ended the day! Thank you, babes! Look at how much we've grown! Thank you for always being there for me.. =)

What a fairy-tale!
I Felt like singing Today was a fairytale! Thank you so much, everyone for making my birthday a meaningful one, a my kind of perfect one! =)
Not to forget phone calls from Mom, Dad, Ming, Jie, Amelia, Eunice, cards from Hostel Gang! =)
and all wishes which came from fb, texts, etc.. =)

PS. notice the first picture when I'd just arrived at school, holding my phone? That's a call from my sis! =)

and Oh! I almost forgot! Few days afterwards...

Thank you! ^^

-That's all from now, because I just got a job! I don't think I can burn midnight oil to finish this post at 1 go! Wish me luck everyone! =) Have a nice holiday! =)

* BIG Hugs*

Devi =)

... to be continued!

"When you think Tim McGraw..."

When your close friend is not with you, you will wish her/him may she/he always be fine in whatever she/he does..

and I'm truly sincerely,  think of you that way..

But I only ask one thing,

Please think good of me.. not that you have to wish me the best, but please...
Remember me as one of your good friend too...

Trust me, I always look up to you as my good closest friend. I really do..

 

"When you think of that Band, I hope you think my favorite song." 

Good luck with your life, pal! Wishing you the best in everything you do, always... =)
*hugs*

Where are you now?

"Calling out your name
Your face is everywhere
I'm reaching out to you
To find that you're not there
I wake up every night
To see the state I'm in
It's like an endless fight
I never seem to win
I can't go on as long as I believe
Can't let go when I keep wondering

Where are you now? what have you found?
Where is your heart when I'm not around?
Where are you now? you gotta let me know
Oh baby, so I can let you go

I can hear your voice
The ring of yesterday
It seems so close to me
But yet so far away
I should let it out
To save what's left of me
And close the doors of doubt
Revive my dignity
But I can't go on as long as I believe
(As long as I believe)
Can't let go when I keep wondering

Where are you now? what have you found?
Where is your heart when I'm not around?
Tell me where are you now, you gotta let me know
Oh baby, so I can let you go

I should let it out, it's time to let you go
Oh baby, I just want to know


Where are you now? what have you found?
Where is your heart when I'm not around?
Tell me where are you now, you gotta let me know
Oh baby, so I can let you go..."

~Britney Spears, from her old old collection of songs, Where are You Now?

Be it a nostalgic feeling, be it the same stage of emotion that i feel, I am attracted to this melody... You know when you are sick you tend to be a little bit hmm.. dependent on people.. 
"Hey, tell me, where are you now?"

Boredom

Dear Readers,

This is what I do when I'm bored..

Yeap a lot of mistakes, but you know it's worth it to kill the boredom! just have fun and sing~~~

Continue doing PBL~~~

Da Jie's birthday

To my Dearest Sister,


"Nothing else better than to present you a song, a song of our anthem. A song that never fails bringing back the memories when we were just two little girls, having each other like nothing else matters..."





"... and we still are now.. I love you..."

Have a very Happy Birthday!

Love,

Devi

Week 1

Week 1 was so far so good...
but I still can't get my head focus on the studies! =(
It's time to put other things aside.

Yeah, starting from now!
err.. okay!
Adios!

Enjoy Carrie Underwood's Temporary Home. She has a very beautiful voice! ^^

Failure

Have u ever failed before?

I have, so many times... but yesterday was really a failure.

I've never felt so disappointed before, even when a favorite university rejected me for 3 times, it never felt as bad, bitter, shameful as my feelings yesterday. It's awful.

But nothing goes in vain. Lessons learned.
Besides the fact that I was very devastated about it, this, too, is the first time I felt that it's some kind of  like God's plan the way Christians say it despite what religion or beliefs I have.

Generally, it's like the whole things happened around me recently were knitted together perfectly and it gives me some kind of answer. I won't call it an absolute answer, but it will determine what I'll do on taking my next steps.

I was so into "Change" recently. I've never paid too much attention to this song before.
I was confused for long on what style I should do on my projects which are recruited by others.
I had an unfinished project that I started to work on during the holiday.

After that night,
The unfinished project came to finalization.
I think I know what style I would play.
and it feels like "Change" gave me courage and have prepared me a cushion before the blow hit me.

And of course, I'm LUCKY that all my project-mates are very very very truly supportive.
And I'm so grateful for that.
Thank you, my new friends.

To everyone who've helped me out, even though you don't even know it,
"I can't thank you more"
"that I've stood up once again"

Can you feel it now?

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up...

Remember I've told you that I went for a retreat?
But this time I'm not gonna talk about it yet. It's my and my Mom's visit to Auntie's house I wanna talk about.

We came to visit Grandma and at that moment I had just found that my cousin has been suffering from some kind of illness. It saddened me so much. How could u stand the constantly inexplicable pain on your back?
He just lay down on bed, curled his feet up, and fidgeted somehow to ease the pain.

No, he didn't smoke, he's a perfectly fine young man. But I'm amazed with his endurance. He smiled, greeted me gracefully as if nothing happened, but I could tell that he's in great pain because he curled up his body and fidgeted.

Now that he's back from his medication trip (is that how u call it?) at Penang, I really hoped that he will someday be fully recovered. Yeah, we must be optimistic! =) You can do it! Just never give up! =) I will pray for you.. =)

Anyway, during the visit, I also played with little Audry, my cousin's sister's daughter. Look how much she's grown!
Everyone was busy and so I took this chance to play with her.. =)

she played as a chef? haha and I played as an ever loyal customer! Lol! xD
btw, sweet soya sauce? is that correct? hahaha...

She's just 5 years old (I think), and look how well she speaks English! I don't think I know a single English word when I was 5!

She learned how to take videos! and she caught it very fast! =o wow!

Let's tidy things up! good girl! (I'm sorry if you found that my accent is a bit funny through out the videos! hahaha!)

This is the age when the kids are at their cutest and purest and learn a lot about you and the world, a very crucial moment. I believe every parent would like to treasure these moments a lot!

I'm sorry Mom, Dad, I realized that I was not cute or fun at all! I was quite hard to be taken care of! But you did with all your heart anyway.. Thank you with gratitude and respect.  _/|\_

"Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up
It could still be simple"

Let this be just forever a wish, because life must go on, or else if it's not, then something must have gone wrong! Haha! xD

But, still...

It's sweet to think like that..

a very touching song by TS, Never Grow Up.. =') it represents my little thoughts of never grown up.

That's all for now, good nite..

Curly Haired Girl's Story

Hey everyone! It's been a while (again!) that i did not tell u anything! Haha! Please pardon me, I have a lot of projects to be done..

Okay, now I will try to update you on what's happening starting from last semester! (oh gosh! I have not written anything since then!)

and it's starting with hair.One of significant changes that I've made! haha.. xD

Yes, this is how my hair looks like now.

Boo! scare u with my pedsodent teeth!

  

hair, tied up

Many people asked, "Hey, is that natural?", "Do u use any curling iron?", "did you have it permed?" etc etc.

Rite, last time my hair was straightened when I first started my uni life, that's why not many people know that my hair is actually curly.

my school girl look

with full bangs! I looked so freaking young! or at least that's what I think!

side-swept bangs

Yeah, the younger-looking effect and easy to take care of are the top 2 reasons why I like straight hair.

But I thought it's time to get the curls back as I watched Taylor Swift's add below:



I was like crap man! that's how it feels like.. "He liked a cool girl, and she had straight hair!"
That's the whole point! People think that naturally curly hair is uncool. Oh well at least, I had bought into that idea for a long time, especially during my high school years.

I also happened to read blogs and watch videos on how to manage and style curly hair. I was overwhelmed with the feeling and the connection that I understand very much with all the girls with curls! T.T  (Haha! xD, but it's true!)

One thing I realized is that all this while, I had been taking care of my curly hair as other straight hair girls do. Well, that's just NOT the way! It works for them, but not for us who have curly/wavy hair.

And one night (fuyohhh.. hhahha), I decided that i would have my curls back!
As time passed by, my hair grew longer, and the curl started to appear, but the edge was still straight.
That's the only part that I have it permed.

Okay, so here is the secret. After I've washed my hair, I apply this cream and twist the strangles of hair with my finger, yes, as simple as that.

the Loreal spiral splendour cream which saves the day!

Well as I don't have too much time to spend on my hair, I stop until that step, and let my hair be air-dried.

There's another way actually that u might try! You could use a long finger diffuser, to keep it simple (haha, I actually do not know that much about this coz i have not tried to explore more about it yet =P), just call it diffuser.

So instead of blowing your hair with hair-dryer that will make your curly hair go frizzy an bushy, it will gently blow your hair and keep your curls intact. So here it is:

this is one of the videos that I've come across. go to 2:16, that is called a diffuser. =P

Well that's it! That's how I get my hair. I hope this can help out all girls with curls! We still can survive without having it permanently straightened! =)

Of course there are times when my hair gets messy. I mean oh! c'mon who in the world never had a bad hair day before? =P So cheers girls! =) You're pretty just the way you are!

Oh my, I've mentioned Taylor Swift a lot! Alright, enjoy one of her songs, Change. =D

Bye~~~

See u again! =D Tha.. Tha...

PS. And if you ever wonder that why our curls are not as pretty as TS's or any other singers' or actresses', do remember one point: they have A LOT of professional stylists to help them out! So be proud! =)

I'm back here in msia

Hey!

I'm back here in msia.. I couldn't really be online when I was back in Indonesia.
First, the internet and the lappie were not so convenient to use.
Second, I'd rather lazying around in front of TV, pampering myself with home-cook and street food, and of course being with my mom and dad.. =)


I'm going to the bank very soon.. will share with u what I've done during the holiday when i'm free.. =)
Geez, I still have alot of things to handle before I can freely said I'm free to blog.. =s

Anyway, I hope u be well and happy always! =)



I also updated myself with new Hitz from home country.. Enjoy "Cinta dan Benci" by Geisha! =)

Hi Blog! =3

It's been a while since I last updated u! =)but let me tell you this, It's a been a busy semester, and I've tried alot of things!
one of it: hehehe.... *shy* being an i.gemz-er!!! oh gosh, how cool is that? =3
will update you with things in my mind, but can only do that when I reach Medan, kay? cause I'm having an endless outings here! hahaha...xD

I'm broke, man! hahaha..xD

c u in a while!
Hopefully will get some peace and serenity during upcoming meditation retreat in Bogor! =)

with love (and excitement.. *woot! holiday*),
Devi

Btw, I'm gonna watch this soon! =)