My turn to savour my last weekend... jobless!

Yay! The visa has finally been 1 step away from being ready! yoohoo! I'm gonna teach soon!
It's a mixed feeling between exciting and frightening.

It is exciting because I'm gonna see the students! the kids! ahhh, and make new friends! =) Isn't it wonderful knowing that you take part in building a person's personality and skills? especially in their young age, when guidance is really necessary. Oh! I just can't wait to start! =D I hope I can be their friend and teacher at the same time! =)

However another part of me is frightened. Well, a lot of challenges are foreseen.
First and foremost challenge is waking up early, and sleeping early everyday. It is a challenge for a night owl like me! I can't afford to be late now! >.<

Next challenge will be commuting to school. I need to build up my arms strength to carry myself up through a wall hurdle on our way! For now, I'm still counting on bf to help me up! Haha! xD By the end of the year, I shall have no problem in push ups! yay! Hahaha!

And most of all is the students themselves.
Are they gonna like me?
Will they understand what I'm gonna teach?
Will they find my teaching method interesting?
Will they even listen to me?
What if I can't control the class?
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... and it goes on and on...
Well, I'm about to find out!
I heard that the students here are more 'difficult' to handle than those in government/chinese school, but somehow I have a good feeling about this! Well, let's keep it this way! =)
I shall do my best to guide them, my children! =)

This mixed feeling reminds me of a song titled "I have Confidence" from The Sound of Music. Maria (Julie Andrews) sang this when she was on her way to Von Trapp family's residence. She is going to be a nanny for the captain's 7 children who are notorious for being so 'difficult' to handle. Enjoy this song, sang by the gorgeous Sierra Boggess!

Lyrics:
What will this day be like? I wonder.
What will my future be? I wonder.
It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be free
My heart should be wildly rejoicing
Oh, what's the matter with me?

I've always longed for adventure
To do the things I've never dared
And here I'm facing adventure
Then why am I so scared

A captain with seven children
What's so fearsome about that?

Oh, I must stop these doubts, all these worries
If I don't I just know I'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

The courage to serve them with reliance
Face my mistakes without defiance
Show them I'm worthy
And while I show them 
I'll show me

So, let them bring on all their problems
I'll do better than my best!!!
I have confidence they'll put me to the test
But I'll make them see I have confidence in me

Somehow I will impress them
I will be firm but kind
And all those children (Heaven bless them!)
They will look up to me

And mind me with each step I am more certain
Everything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which you see I have confidence in me

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers
When you wake up -- WAKE UP!

It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone
(Oh help!)

I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence in me!

Happy singing! =)

Sex: two sides of a coin

Hello everyone! How are you doing?

I hope I start working soon! I feel so unworthy when I don't do any work! :)
Anyway, me and my friend are preparing aerobic dance for charity this saturday to help raise awareness for children with learning disabilities. Wheeee, I'm so happy being involved in doing good things! :) It's 3.25 pm now, in about half an hour, bf will come back from work! Yay, I'm so happy to see him. :)

Okay, I just spent a good 2 hours to surf the internet and find out that it is scary how sex can be heavenly beautiful on one hand, and can be disastrously immorally ugly on the other hand. You might wonder why I suddenly bring up this topic. Well, growing up in a conservative asian culture, I have a very poor knowledge about sex. Believe it or not, the more you hide something from a kid, the more he will try to find out, and so I slowly find out about this through reading, movies that I come accross, internet, and other improper learning media without guidance.

At my age (yeah, not so young anymore), I'm lucky enough that I can judge wiser than kids or teens far younger than me. Imagine, if I was much younger and naive, and I was exposed to these kinds of things without any guidance of sex education from school or parents, it would be such a dangerous thing!

In my country, well during my time, students are not equipped with any sex education besides a unit from biology called Reproductive System. That is sad.

Male and Female Reproductive System for kids
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Well lucky thing for me that I took Pharmacy which educated me with hell lots of sexual health. I still remember I was in 2nd year that time and I asked a friend of mine how intercourse could have possibly happened even a male and a female stay so close to each other. I have no idea that penis will erect, go up, and so be able to penetrate the vagina. -.-

Well, my point is sex ed is important! I can see my friends who are taught proper sex education before are more well-informed about it. And what's important is that they know about safe sex, the consequences of unhealthy sex and I can see that they are more capable in filtering the information about it from media.

Just to share with you what I found today from my superficial search in internet about sex. Sex can be heavenly beautiful when it is done by two people in love, well described by poetic narration, romantic lyrics, beautiful love scene from movies. However, it can also be very immoral! It is shown by rape, any type of rape, anything that is done without consent. This thing makes me wanna puke! How horrible human can be! It is really heart wrenching and breaking knowing that rape is happening at other side of the world.
My heart goes to all rape victims. I pray that this thing shall stop. :(

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Ah, I'm so sad right now.
It's 4.40pm! I got a go!

Breathe in the positivity!