Week 1

Week 1 was so far so good...
but I still can't get my head focus on the studies! =(
It's time to put other things aside.

Yeah, starting from now!
err.. okay!
Adios!

Enjoy Carrie Underwood's Temporary Home. She has a very beautiful voice! ^^

Failure

Have u ever failed before?

I have, so many times... but yesterday was really a failure.

I've never felt so disappointed before, even when a favorite university rejected me for 3 times, it never felt as bad, bitter, shameful as my feelings yesterday. It's awful.

But nothing goes in vain. Lessons learned.
Besides the fact that I was very devastated about it, this, too, is the first time I felt that it's some kind of  like God's plan the way Christians say it despite what religion or beliefs I have.

Generally, it's like the whole things happened around me recently were knitted together perfectly and it gives me some kind of answer. I won't call it an absolute answer, but it will determine what I'll do on taking my next steps.

I was so into "Change" recently. I've never paid too much attention to this song before.
I was confused for long on what style I should do on my projects which are recruited by others.
I had an unfinished project that I started to work on during the holiday.

After that night,
The unfinished project came to finalization.
I think I know what style I would play.
and it feels like "Change" gave me courage and have prepared me a cushion before the blow hit me.

And of course, I'm LUCKY that all my project-mates are very very very truly supportive.
And I'm so grateful for that.
Thank you, my new friends.

To everyone who've helped me out, even though you don't even know it,
"I can't thank you more"
"that I've stood up once again"

Can you feel it now?

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up...

Remember I've told you that I went for a retreat?
But this time I'm not gonna talk about it yet. It's my and my Mom's visit to Auntie's house I wanna talk about.

We came to visit Grandma and at that moment I had just found that my cousin has been suffering from some kind of illness. It saddened me so much. How could u stand the constantly inexplicable pain on your back?
He just lay down on bed, curled his feet up, and fidgeted somehow to ease the pain.

No, he didn't smoke, he's a perfectly fine young man. But I'm amazed with his endurance. He smiled, greeted me gracefully as if nothing happened, but I could tell that he's in great pain because he curled up his body and fidgeted.

Now that he's back from his medication trip (is that how u call it?) at Penang, I really hoped that he will someday be fully recovered. Yeah, we must be optimistic! =) You can do it! Just never give up! =) I will pray for you.. =)

Anyway, during the visit, I also played with little Audry, my cousin's sister's daughter. Look how much she's grown!
Everyone was busy and so I took this chance to play with her.. =)

she played as a chef? haha and I played as an ever loyal customer! Lol! xD
btw, sweet soya sauce? is that correct? hahaha...

She's just 5 years old (I think), and look how well she speaks English! I don't think I know a single English word when I was 5!

She learned how to take videos! and she caught it very fast! =o wow!

Let's tidy things up! good girl! (I'm sorry if you found that my accent is a bit funny through out the videos! hahaha!)

This is the age when the kids are at their cutest and purest and learn a lot about you and the world, a very crucial moment. I believe every parent would like to treasure these moments a lot!

I'm sorry Mom, Dad, I realized that I was not cute or fun at all! I was quite hard to be taken care of! But you did with all your heart anyway.. Thank you with gratitude and respect.  _/|\_

"Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up
It could still be simple"

Let this be just forever a wish, because life must go on, or else if it's not, then something must have gone wrong! Haha! xD

But, still...

It's sweet to think like that..

a very touching song by TS, Never Grow Up.. =') it represents my little thoughts of never grown up.

That's all for now, good nite..

Curly Haired Girl's Story

Hey everyone! It's been a while (again!) that i did not tell u anything! Haha! Please pardon me, I have a lot of projects to be done..

Okay, now I will try to update you on what's happening starting from last semester! (oh gosh! I have not written anything since then!)

and it's starting with hair.One of significant changes that I've made! haha.. xD

Yes, this is how my hair looks like now.

Boo! scare u with my pedsodent teeth!

  

hair, tied up

Many people asked, "Hey, is that natural?", "Do u use any curling iron?", "did you have it permed?" etc etc.

Rite, last time my hair was straightened when I first started my uni life, that's why not many people know that my hair is actually curly.

my school girl look

with full bangs! I looked so freaking young! or at least that's what I think!

side-swept bangs

Yeah, the younger-looking effect and easy to take care of are the top 2 reasons why I like straight hair.

But I thought it's time to get the curls back as I watched Taylor Swift's add below:



I was like crap man! that's how it feels like.. "He liked a cool girl, and she had straight hair!"
That's the whole point! People think that naturally curly hair is uncool. Oh well at least, I had bought into that idea for a long time, especially during my high school years.

I also happened to read blogs and watch videos on how to manage and style curly hair. I was overwhelmed with the feeling and the connection that I understand very much with all the girls with curls! T.T  (Haha! xD, but it's true!)

One thing I realized is that all this while, I had been taking care of my curly hair as other straight hair girls do. Well, that's just NOT the way! It works for them, but not for us who have curly/wavy hair.

And one night (fuyohhh.. hhahha), I decided that i would have my curls back!
As time passed by, my hair grew longer, and the curl started to appear, but the edge was still straight.
That's the only part that I have it permed.

Okay, so here is the secret. After I've washed my hair, I apply this cream and twist the strangles of hair with my finger, yes, as simple as that.

the Loreal spiral splendour cream which saves the day!

Well as I don't have too much time to spend on my hair, I stop until that step, and let my hair be air-dried.

There's another way actually that u might try! You could use a long finger diffuser, to keep it simple (haha, I actually do not know that much about this coz i have not tried to explore more about it yet =P), just call it diffuser.

So instead of blowing your hair with hair-dryer that will make your curly hair go frizzy an bushy, it will gently blow your hair and keep your curls intact. So here it is:

this is one of the videos that I've come across. go to 2:16, that is called a diffuser. =P

Well that's it! That's how I get my hair. I hope this can help out all girls with curls! We still can survive without having it permanently straightened! =)

Of course there are times when my hair gets messy. I mean oh! c'mon who in the world never had a bad hair day before? =P So cheers girls! =) You're pretty just the way you are!

Oh my, I've mentioned Taylor Swift a lot! Alright, enjoy one of her songs, Change. =D

Bye~~~

See u again! =D Tha.. Tha...

PS. And if you ever wonder that why our curls are not as pretty as TS's or any other singers' or actresses', do remember one point: they have A LOT of professional stylists to help them out! So be proud! =)

I'm back here in msia

Hey!

I'm back here in msia.. I couldn't really be online when I was back in Indonesia.
First, the internet and the lappie were not so convenient to use.
Second, I'd rather lazying around in front of TV, pampering myself with home-cook and street food, and of course being with my mom and dad.. =)


I'm going to the bank very soon.. will share with u what I've done during the holiday when i'm free.. =)
Geez, I still have alot of things to handle before I can freely said I'm free to blog.. =s

Anyway, I hope u be well and happy always! =)



I also updated myself with new Hitz from home country.. Enjoy "Cinta dan Benci" by Geisha! =)